Into the great unknown I go

I should be resting for my drive as I type this, because I have only gotten seven hours of sleep and I have a seven hour drive to Nashville today.

I leave for Kanakuk today, and will be a camp couselor there until the early parts of July. I have no idea what it will be like, or what I'm getting myself into. I guess it will be a little bit like the previous "futures" in my life that I have not known. Just leave it to God and pray that He knows what He is doing. Why I pray that He knows what He is doing, I don't know, it just sounds like a better idea than not talking to Him about my uncertainty.

But, in preparing for this job, I have been packing the 5.5 days I've been here for roughly, 5 days. Because I'm working at camp for the first 7.5 weeks of summer, I won't be here to help my family move to Mount Juliet(Nashville), so I had to unpack everything from Samford, repack things for camp, and then pack what was left and the remains of my room for moving to Tennessee. I can say it has been an interesting 5 days(you find many random things that bring back memories when packing which was fun, as a sidenote). Haha and I finally finished last night, which felt amazing. My closet really looks like a mini-storage unit with all the boxes stacked in it. But asides from packing, I have been able to have a little bit of fun. I was able to see some friends graduate and attend Tucker's party afterward. We swam in his outdoor pool amidst the lightning, thunder, and rain. We had a good time, and it was good to celebrate his accomplishments. I went to the beach and was able to catch up and relax some with Lauren and Allie. Chatting on the beach with old friends is never a bad thing, and getting some sun was definitely nice as well. I went to Hardee's with Daniel, Stone, Travis, and Charlie this morning, as is their weekly meeting before school to discuss a book they are reading to just have some fellowship! It was nice. And one of my personal highlights was spending the night on the pier with Tucker and Chris. It was a lot of fun being able to act like we were "high schoolers" again and just be insanely goofy out there. And I must admit, I did run into the screen door of the house (there you go Tucker and Chris, and my excuse is that it was VERY dark.)

And to close, I finally found the hat I've been looking for, my new frisbee hat. I found the cookie monster. I'm excited for a summer with kids, God, letters from friends (hopefully), and no facebook.

Have a summer, my one or two readers. Make it good.

Romans 8:28

Praise

I don't even know where to begin. The last few months have been a blur. We've had intramural frisbee, camping trips to Cullman, disco club nights, i've taken up the hobby of rock climbing/bouldering at nearby moss rock, and we even filled someone's room to the brim with newspaper.

But I really don't feel like talking about all of that right now, or at least not yet.

I'm learning how to be alone, and have nothing but God. I just started Crazy Love and it's reminding me that I'm focusing on me way more than I should be. This life isn't a movie about me, if it was, in the grand scheme of things since the beginning I don't have a main role or even a name that people will remember when the movie is over. My part will be over before I know it, and it's really about God.

Then there is the idea of how much I love God. Do I love God like a child who will run to God when I see Him? Like a little son or daughter who sees their Dad when he comes home from work?

Man. I fail in my attempt to love God and in my tries to make life about him. Thank you for grace. Recently, I finally understood and actually put into place ideas that make fasting so beneficial. When I want something that I've given up, I just realize and remember that I want God more than I want whatever I'm longing for. And He is SO much more than whatever I long for on this earth.

He is bigger, stronger, more beautiful, lovelier, greater, more powerful, more awesome, more knowledgable, and more gracious than anything in all creation and He chooses to love ME? Why? Because, I am His creation, and he loves me. And, I've come to know that neither death or life, neither angels nor demons, neither present nor the future, nor any powers, neither heights nor depths, nor anything else in ALL creation can separate me from the love of God that is in Christ. That is why I want God. Thank you God for wanting me.

Lamentations 3:21-23
-"Yet this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope:Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning. Great is your faithfulness."